it's like growing up, in reverse.

mom isn't able to use the toilet anymore.
yesterday she started peeing in the bed.
at the end of the day, i had changed the sheets on the bed thrice and put an adult diaper on her.
my mom, who smells like jean nate, lavender mint body wash, amber perfume and skin lotion, now smells like pee.
i'm feeling really worried.
there are a bunch of things that needed to get done and i haven't wanted to do them, and i am worried that it's too late now. legal stuff, stuff to sign. mom can't sign anything now. i guess she could do a shaky 'x' but that's about it.
i feel like i fucked it up with my waiting.
also, i am just fucking bummed about mom, obviously.
in other news, me and shannon are home owners now, officially.
my birthday is next week.
i have been watching a lot of 'the west wing' on dvd and tv in general, and i don't think carlos mencia is funny at all.
'wing' made me cry a bunch, but i predisposed to it right now anyway.
i'm not feeling very hopeful or happy. just tired and sad.