HARRY POTTER!!!!!!!!!!!!

alright, pals, i'm freaking out over harry potter. again.
i have re-read book 5 (the order of the phoenix - so dark! sirius!!) and am almost done with book 6 (the half-blood prince - better than book 5! DUMBLEDORE!) and i am totally primed for the release of the new book and the new movie.
here are my concerns about both:

1) the movie - emma watson is so fucking terrible that it makes the movies hard to watch. as, as hermione gets cooler and cooler in the books, emma watson has stayed utterly dreadful. i am dreading watching her fuck it up on screen, and totally suck, again. also, i don't think the kid who plays harry is cute enough. doesn't harry sound like he's a little bit of a hunk? and that kid is really not at all a hunk.

2) the book - um....it's the end, guys. the end. like, no more, allegedly. this book had better be so fucking good. i am almost guaranteed to be disappointed by it, because i always loathe endings and am really resistant to them. it's THE END.. okay? and more people will die. how is that possible? poor harry is going to end up beating valdemort, but having to spend the rest of his life with dobby or something, because everyone else has been sacrificed in the same of sensationalism.

some thoughts about the books, as i am rereading them:
1) book 5 is an annoying book. harry is a jerk the entire book. sirius is being a jerk alot of the time, too. i don't think that rowling did a good enough job making sirius likeable, because he's mostly a jerk. and did she really have to kill him? like harry hasn't suffered enough. jesus, woman, leave the kid alone for a second. i know he's bitter because stuff sucks for him, but stuff sucks alot for him is book 6 and suddenly he isn't really a jerk anymore. 

2) book 6 is what i'm talking about, people. this is a good fucking book. it's funny, hermione is a bad-ass, ginny is, too, plenty of house elves and kissing. excellent. and, i know the whole world was surprised about dumbledore, but i saw that shit coming a mile away. he's barely in the other books, except as a calming presence, so it's kinda guaranteed it'll be him, since he's in book 6 so much. um...i can't remember the details, because i am not there yet, but isn't the half-blood prince valdemort? and how can harry not realize that? it seems pretty fucking obvious. also, SNAPE!! WTF?! what's he doing?! i'm not there yet, so i'll have more to shout about this afternoon.


you guys, what if this next book really is the LAST book? like, that's all we get. 

i am dreading it.

i am going to read the last book really, really slowly. like, a chapter a day.

so don't ruin it for me. i have to find closure in my own way.


on an unrelated note, mom's next big doctor's appointment is on friday. it's not a huge one, but it'll determine what happens next with her treatment, so it's a little bit of a big deal. allen's coming and i am not thrilled about that.