it comes and goes.

it's been pretty smooth sailing, i guess.

work is good. tiring, and i am letting my life slide a little bit, but it's overall really satisfying.

having shannon home is the best. we had our 5 year anniversary somewhere in the last 10 days, and i am very thankful that we're still really excited to spend time together, and really enjoy each other.

we passed on that flood-bait house, and are considering a new one. it needs a lot of work, but it's in a great neighborhood, so, with the work we'd do, there's almost no way the house wouldn't be worth a lot more when we're done. we're waiting on some reports, so we'll see what happens. it's in west 'luma, which feels so much like sun valley in san rafael that it's a little weird.

we're having more dog trouble, though.

shannon has been concerned about the dog for a couple of days, but it wasn't until today that he was really sure that something is wrong. she's moving weird, and not wanting to stand. her neurologist, in berkeley, is out of town for a month and there are only 4 neurologists for pets in northern california. 

we're taking the dog to an appointment in san leandro, i guess.

the dog doesn't want to get up and go anywhere. i mean, she's always lazy, but shannon can't get her to get up and leave work with him now. when she stands up, she wobbles for a second, then flops over again.

i know that things have to go in cycles, or waves, or whatever metaphor you want to use. ups and down, highs and lows, ebb and flow.

i have been thankful for the little tiny piece of peace, but i am not ready for the misery to start again. i know mom's health stuff will flare up, and our dog will die, and shannon and i will fight.

i guess i had just hoped for a little bit longer.

we spent tonight in the pet emergency room. shannon had to carry her to the car from work. of course they don't really know what's wrong, but every lame, exspensive test gets us closer, i guess.

i'm really tired. 

on a up note, 'this american life' was so fucking good this week that i cried within the first 2 minutes and barely stopped ever. one of the best i've ever heard.